Mix Emotion

I don't know why suddenly I feel so sad. Its not like something really really really bad happen. Every time I bump into that person I feel so angry yet a longing seems to surface. I force myself not to say anything and just ignore that person but being myself can't help it but I stupidly smiled and exchange a few words.

After talking to that person I feel happy yet angry and sad at the same time. Its amazing how sometimes we can really get confuse by our feelings. Its hard to interpret. Please let me walk around with ease and no worries of who will I bump into. God help me. :(

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We fall, we cry, we lose, we try, we laugh, we win and we  fight till we die.

Life is like a spinning wheel said the wise and old. 

Today we are together tomorrow we may be apart.
With this I would like to live my life to the fullest.
Never regret the choices I have made.
Never looking back on the things I have done.
Oh! But I will change for the better.
Yes I will.
I know I will go on stronger everyday.
I know because I have God, My Family and true great friends.

Everlasting Love

While I was waiting for the bus today I bumped into an old close friend.

"Hye Daph, lama tak jumpa. (Hug) Macam mana sekarang sihat tak?."
That was how we started.
After the normal Q&As she than tee that question.
"You, dah ada boyfriend?.. someone special.. yang on the way nak couple.. story2 la".

(I looked at her shaked my head and smiled)

"Laa.. Who yang sanggup couple with me.." I said and laughed.
"You ni selalu cakap macam tu agak-agak la.". She said while pulling a face.

(I laughed)
(Stopped and for a moment I smiled and just looked at her while trying to find the perfect answer)

"My cinta sejati and orang yang I paling sayang is my parents". I said and I laughed some more.

(She gave me "the look")

"You memang selalu bagi answer yang lame". She said and smiled.
I didn't get the chance to say anything else as people was forming a line because the bus was coming.

When I first said I love and cared my parents.
I didn't really mean it.
They were empty words to tease a friend.
After some time reflecting on what I have claimed, I notice that I have done something wrong.
To say I love yet not to mean it.
To say I care when they were just empty words.


Parents,
I have failed you hundreds of times,
Yet you cheer for me a million times more.
I have hurt you in every way,
Yet you love me in all of your way.


The love that our parents have showered us is an everlasting love.
Even after they are long gone that love lives as it sustains in our memory.

Dawn Of A New Battle

I am Lord of this land,
Keeper of keys,
Salvation maker,
Freedom leader.

I am Lord of this land,
Strong and weak,
Gentle redeemer,
Triumphant leader.

P/s : Believe in yourself and shine bright!.. But don't forget be humble as you go.

Estrella

"Estrella.. Run.. Estrella". A women shouts in urgent.

Her tiny little feet carries her as fast as they can.

Only she can't seems to understand.

"What is going on?". She questions herself yet keep running.

One hand firmly gripping her Rebenka doll she tries to find a hiding place.

She saw an empty barrel and quickly went inside.

"Oh dear! oh my! this is not right.. This is.." 

BANG!!.. A loud banging comes from behind.

She gasps in fear.

Quickly shutting her mouth with her tiny hands.

Sweat starts to pour down her fair smooth forehead. 

"Please don't let them get me! Please!". She silently pray.

Tud.. tud..tud.. The sound of footsteps on the dirt.

Slowly the sound of footsteps comes closer and closer.

Instantly she curl inwards,grip her Rebenka doll closer and shuts her eye.

"I know your here Esssttrrreeellllaaaa". says the man.

Panic creeps into her. To stress to think. She wants to run.  

She slowly opens her eyes and saw his shadow getting closer.

She can feel him, hear him breathing, she can sense that he is right behind her.

Sinking her face to her doll, she was still as a rock.

Swwwiiiffffffff.. sound of the barrel being turn.

"I've got you!!!". Says the man.

"AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR".Shouts Estrella with all her might as the man pull her out.

"Unhand me.. Unhand me this instance". demand Estrella.

"Hahahahahahaha.. You lose Young Miss,
 tought you would have picked a better place to hide". says the man.

"You didn't gave me much time now did you!!..
What with cook telling me to run before I can think!!". Scolded Estrella.

"A deals a deal Young Miss one game is enough. Its time for lunch now.". Says the man.

Obediently Estrella walk towards the mansion grumbling over the fact that she have lost.  

A world to Conquer

Ah! What fresh air, a new world to conquer!!.

"What is this.. and what is that",  the same feeling I have time and time again ejected.
Fascinated and in awe by what the world have to offer.
"Uuuuuu~.. I can do this and that", as innocent as a baby.
But wait... I smell danger!!!. For this clear water may be the home of a monster.
"The innocent Must NOT be weary,The innocent Must be cautious", suddenly fear befriend me.
For sometimes in the mids of obliviousness a heart might get hurt and the fault be Mine.

Be gentle my dear for words are as sharp as spear.