Feather's Flight

Of you go away from the main body that have molded you to perfection, 

uttered your last well wishes, your goodbyes and the wind blows.

You are light and graceful.

For how long have you been alone in this journey?

Yet, you are still light and graceful.

Wait! what is this? You have been stained? You have been hurt?

Oh! Sweet darling! Poor thing!

How sorry am i for You that the wind never stop blowing.

Long have you been traveling alone and in fear.

and the wind never stop blowing.

What?! A sight of another lost one?

Possible unity?

*Smile.

All well wishes to both of you.

The Land

How long has it been?
This land is dry.
Worry not my dear.
Flowers will bloom again.
This I promise you.

Sweet Sound Of An Instrument

Its been too long.
So long that my fingers hurt. The moment I have this sweet beautiful instrument,
I am in another world.
The wonders of it.
My fingers rebel on my desire to play more but this time melodies must escape.
Serenading me ever so faithful.

This very instrument that unites me with my brothers and father.
Playing it makes me feel like I'm home.
My brothers would be right outside of my room telling me the right chords
if ever I was wrong.
My dad would be telling me to strum softly for that is the correct way.
This instrument the sweet sound of it makes me feel secure.
Makes me feel like I'm home.
Wait for me dear family,
I will be back and will serenade all of you with this instrument.

To Understand The Human Mind

It is interesting to see how human being react when criticize. 

Earlier today I have witness something that I have desperately wanted to understand.

I know that I am no one to judge who ever that it may concern but it triggers my curiosity.

Scene 1 :

You have been given a task by your teacher a few weeks back and you have been 

pouring your whole heart into it so that it may come out just almost perfect.

You went through every little detail made ; checking it and re-checking it for flaws.

Satisfied, you thought it will give that impact you desired.
Finally, its the day to present. You came in late and everything was out of hand.
You tried to explain to your teacher that the bus was late but your teacher
said he would not compensate anything. So, you ask for your 

teacher's mercy to gain his approval to show you your piece.
After going through it your teacher simply said you could have done better
 and was not satisfied with your piece.

              

Reaction 1 :  
Thank your teacher for his comments and make a mental note to be better next time.

Reaction 2 : 
With an angry expression half heartedly thank your teacher and the moment your
teacher turn his back you curse him and said you are better than your teacher.

Scene 2 :

A mother was lecturing her teenage daughter and sons why is it important
that they should study smart. While the mother was talking, her sons was
whispering and snickering to each other. The mother exploded and said her
sons should respect her while she was talking. It is not decent the mother
said to talk while someone was trying to tell you something that
is very important. It is vital to keep quiet and listen because they
may want to know the things their mother was trying to deliver.

Reaction 1 : 
Apologize and take it in a positive manner.

Reaction 2 : 
Make a face, ignore the mother and make a mental note to not to listen to the mother.

Different human beings have different reaction this I know.
What I don't understand is that why some human begins will directly take a
comment or remarks as a negative entity. 

Can't they see that these people are just trying to help and they actually
meant well and they are not trying to bring them down?

Some of them even hold a grudge.

To understand the human mind is a very hard business but I hope someday
I will find an answer that will compensate my curiosity.

A Cry of Weakness

How can i betray myself yet once again.

To fall weakly and stumble into stupidity.

Is this what all i am capable of?

Why i have asked countless time am i so weak? 

Why can't i be strong like the others?

Is this what all i am capable of?

Little voice of mine,

Dear sweet little voice of mine,

Why can't you be louder?

Why can't you be bolder? 

Is this what all i am capable of?

Is this.. what all.. i am capable of?

How Can This Be

*Sigh

How can this be? You guys guilty as charge!! How could you guys?!. Boldly have uttered from the very same lips that claimed and denied at the same time. How dare those words slithered out of both of you mouths.

FAKE! LIES!

I can't take this anymore! What is so wrong with just stopping there? Is it hard to swallow your egos?

Or do one of you have to show that one understands more than the other?

Why suffocate the love and friendship we build?

Just stop it already and get it over with!

Bravo to both of you.

Standing ovation. 

Showing the world that you guys can really act.

There you act as if you guys are fine with each other.

Here you guys bash about each other.

Is this what you call real friendship? 

If this is than I would rather be alone.

 

 

A Funny Song

At First when Sensei (teacher) said she wanted to share a song with us I half expect it to be one of those lame Japanese song. The moment Sensei told us the Tittle I was like Guess I am right after all but right before I ended my assumption Sensei told us to try to understand the lyrics as it is meaningful.

Who would have thought that a song entittle "Okina Furu Dokei" (Old Big Clock) by Hairai Ken would actually bring so much meaning.

The chorus goes like this :

Hyakunen yasumazuni                      (One hundred years without stopping)
Chiku-taku chiku-taku                     (tick tock tick tock)
Ojiisan to ishhoni                             (Together with my grandfather)
Chiku-taku chiku-taku                     (tick tock tick tock)
Ima wa mou ugokanai sono tokei    (Now the clock is not running anymore)

Some people may not get the meaning of this but those who get it congratulations. This song amazingly made the Gents in my class sing. It was funny but I like it. The fact that this song turns out to be somehow interesting and cool  made me feel ashame of myself, reminded me once again never to judge anything before it happen.

Domo Arigato ne Sensei. (Thank you teacher)

Take It As It Is

So, It happen,
Do I care?
Yes.
But,
I take it as it is.

So, It happen,
Am I sad?
Yes.
But,
I am happy as it is.

I learn to take everything as it is. If I cry it doesn't change anything. If I get upset as if it gives more satisfaction. Even though some times I can't take something but in the end I know I can understand.
If I think only for my own benefit, if I think only what is good for me than what good is that to all the people around me. I can't lie and I won't lie, I am sad that we will no longer be together as before but I am also happy to welcome my new Family. So, it happen why should I dwell in this if I can just enjoy the here and now and gain the pleasure of enjoying the then and there. I am not strong, I am just trying to take it as it is.


In the end WE ARE STILL ONE BIG FAMILY.

T.I.M.E

TIME.

Little we have,

Little by little fading away.

MAY BE.

We will still see each other,
We will still be friends.

BUT.

Not the same as now.
Not the same as ever.

WHY?

We Questioned this,
We asked now.

*Sigh*

Presented with no clarification.
Presented with shock.

We are powerless

We are followers.

Time.

I will cherish,
I will hold dear,
I will embrace.

My ray of sun,
My silver lining,
I must not lose,
I must not surrender.


P/s : Though its hard but embrace it we must learn for as "He" said,  "sometimes changes are good."

~MAY BE~

Games

Following the leader.. Simon says..
All a very interesting and fun games that we used to play during our childhood years.
We have grown and we have long forgotten those fun games.
Or have we?
Life ironically is playtime and is full with games.
You play it right you will be successful,
but when your not a good player than failure be yours.

One game that we time and time again play is the game of L.O.V. E
Simple rules but hard to win.
and harder still to end it.
Years of battle planning and buying armour and it ends with simple vows. 
Ironic. Sad. Happy.
Pick your choice.

Exhausting is it.
To play the game.
Especially if you play the game similar to following the leader.

*Sigh*

 

Little Miss Sunshine (Perhaps)

She owns a warm smile and a confident walk.
She goes through her day happy as one can be,
Showing no worries no sadness,
"There goes little miss sunshine", people will say.
"No worries and no regrets thats her life".
Alas, so sad is her life within,
How cruel can a smile be,
Faking all that is not there,
Her life is like a painting,
It looks glorious and joyous,
But one must understand the true meaning within.

Will there be no one who will try to understand?
Will there be no one who can see the dark clouds above?

So tragic her life will be as people will still call her Little Miss Sunshine.

Pulling a Band Aid

Far will you be,
seldome will we meet,
Hurt will I be,
Seeing you leave.
Show will I not the emptyness I feel,
Happy will I be to see you free.

You no longer burden yourself with this weight you bare.
But the weight I bare is heavier than yours seeing your leave.

Like pulling a band aid will I do to set my self free of the loss and sadness I bare.

Dearest Friend,
Be safe.. Be happy..

Pray will I for the happiness you seek.

Mix Emotion

I don't know why suddenly I feel so sad. Its not like something really really really bad happen. Every time I bump into that person I feel so angry yet a longing seems to surface. I force myself not to say anything and just ignore that person but being myself can't help it but I stupidly smiled and exchange a few words.

After talking to that person I feel happy yet angry and sad at the same time. Its amazing how sometimes we can really get confuse by our feelings. Its hard to interpret. Please let me walk around with ease and no worries of who will I bump into. God help me. :(

...

We fall, we cry, we lose, we try, we laugh, we win and we  fight till we die.

Life is like a spinning wheel said the wise and old. 

Today we are together tomorrow we may be apart.
With this I would like to live my life to the fullest.
Never regret the choices I have made.
Never looking back on the things I have done.
Oh! But I will change for the better.
Yes I will.
I know I will go on stronger everyday.
I know because I have God, My Family and true great friends.

Everlasting Love

While I was waiting for the bus today I bumped into an old close friend.

"Hye Daph, lama tak jumpa. (Hug) Macam mana sekarang sihat tak?."
That was how we started.
After the normal Q&As she than tee that question.
"You, dah ada boyfriend?.. someone special.. yang on the way nak couple.. story2 la".

(I looked at her shaked my head and smiled)

"Laa.. Who yang sanggup couple with me.." I said and laughed.
"You ni selalu cakap macam tu agak-agak la.". She said while pulling a face.

(I laughed)
(Stopped and for a moment I smiled and just looked at her while trying to find the perfect answer)

"My cinta sejati and orang yang I paling sayang is my parents". I said and I laughed some more.

(She gave me "the look")

"You memang selalu bagi answer yang lame". She said and smiled.
I didn't get the chance to say anything else as people was forming a line because the bus was coming.

When I first said I love and cared my parents.
I didn't really mean it.
They were empty words to tease a friend.
After some time reflecting on what I have claimed, I notice that I have done something wrong.
To say I love yet not to mean it.
To say I care when they were just empty words.


Parents,
I have failed you hundreds of times,
Yet you cheer for me a million times more.
I have hurt you in every way,
Yet you love me in all of your way.


The love that our parents have showered us is an everlasting love.
Even after they are long gone that love lives as it sustains in our memory.

Dawn Of A New Battle

I am Lord of this land,
Keeper of keys,
Salvation maker,
Freedom leader.

I am Lord of this land,
Strong and weak,
Gentle redeemer,
Triumphant leader.

P/s : Believe in yourself and shine bright!.. But don't forget be humble as you go.

Estrella

"Estrella.. Run.. Estrella". A women shouts in urgent.

Her tiny little feet carries her as fast as they can.

Only she can't seems to understand.

"What is going on?". She questions herself yet keep running.

One hand firmly gripping her Rebenka doll she tries to find a hiding place.

She saw an empty barrel and quickly went inside.

"Oh dear! oh my! this is not right.. This is.." 

BANG!!.. A loud banging comes from behind.

She gasps in fear.

Quickly shutting her mouth with her tiny hands.

Sweat starts to pour down her fair smooth forehead. 

"Please don't let them get me! Please!". She silently pray.

Tud.. tud..tud.. The sound of footsteps on the dirt.

Slowly the sound of footsteps comes closer and closer.

Instantly she curl inwards,grip her Rebenka doll closer and shuts her eye.

"I know your here Esssttrrreeellllaaaa". says the man.

Panic creeps into her. To stress to think. She wants to run.  

She slowly opens her eyes and saw his shadow getting closer.

She can feel him, hear him breathing, she can sense that he is right behind her.

Sinking her face to her doll, she was still as a rock.

Swwwiiiffffffff.. sound of the barrel being turn.

"I've got you!!!". Says the man.

"AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR".Shouts Estrella with all her might as the man pull her out.

"Unhand me.. Unhand me this instance". demand Estrella.

"Hahahahahahaha.. You lose Young Miss,
 tought you would have picked a better place to hide". says the man.

"You didn't gave me much time now did you!!..
What with cook telling me to run before I can think!!". Scolded Estrella.

"A deals a deal Young Miss one game is enough. Its time for lunch now.". Says the man.

Obediently Estrella walk towards the mansion grumbling over the fact that she have lost.  

A world to Conquer

Ah! What fresh air, a new world to conquer!!.

"What is this.. and what is that",  the same feeling I have time and time again ejected.
Fascinated and in awe by what the world have to offer.
"Uuuuuu~.. I can do this and that", as innocent as a baby.
But wait... I smell danger!!!. For this clear water may be the home of a monster.
"The innocent Must NOT be weary,The innocent Must be cautious", suddenly fear befriend me.
For sometimes in the mids of obliviousness a heart might get hurt and the fault be Mine.

Be gentle my dear for words are as sharp as spear.